18 October 2004 * 13:34
So Monica told me I need to update. So here I go.
William has bought a Blazer from one of the guys in his team. The guy's wife doesn't know yet. It is only $1000. William said it runs and looks good. I told him it better be for me or he is in trouble. I was looking for me a new car. Something high off the ground and roomy. If he bought another car without my approval for himself he is in trouble yet again. I am still not over the Rachel thing. He probably thinks I am because I don't act like it ever happened. But it did and it is always gonna be there.
I got a new bedding set. It is burgundy, green, purple, and gold. It is nice. And it came from Fred's! It was a bedskirt, comforter, and shams. I got accent pillows and candle holders and cut a shower curtain in half and make tablecloths. I tried to use it as curtains because they were out of the curtains to match. But they were too small. It was close though. And it made me straighten up the bedroom. Mom had organized my kitchen for me while I was doing the Christmas care packages, and that helped me to get on the ball too. So now my house is neat and clean and smells like fall thanks to Yankee Candle Tarts :) I am proud. And the yard looks good too. The dogs had trash all over my yard and I cleaned it up in the rain.
Speaking of rain, it is supposed to rain like every day this week. And I have a doctor's appointment every day for the next 3 days. Sleep Clinic, Filling, and Shrink. Then Monday, next Monday, I go to talk to my doctor about weight loss. I purchased some generic green tea diet pills and some generic form of that cortislim stuff. I haven't started yet. I thought I would take them to him and see what he thinks of them. Who knows, he may use a prescription weight loss medication. If he even utters the word Xenical I will run, LOL. My cousin and his wife have been using the green tea pills and they have each lost 20 pounds in just a couple of weeks. They say it helps curb their appetites. But I think all it does is make you poop, LOL. I also have the One A Day Weight Smart vitamins. They made me feel awful. I need to start them again, just taking them at night before bed with my crazy pills.
Now on the crazy pills subject. I have been super hypomanic. Spending money and claning my house and typing 90 mph. I mean I feel good. My bank account doesn't appreciate how good I feel though. Nor does my power and phone bill. Or water bill. I may not have power to see it, but my new bedroom sure looks good, LOL.
Amanda made a website on Bravenet. I tried doing it but gave up. I suck.
Monica has been trying to talk me out of the gastric bypass. She said I was a strong woman and I could commit to a diet and exercise program and lose the weight. She said proof of my strength was going to California with only $100 in my pocket. LOL, I meant I was going to see my husband before he left if I had to eat out of a trash can.
It keeps raining and stopping in short bursts. It is funny. There are tornado watches in Mississippi. Maybe we won't get anything too bad. I don't mind a thunderstorm as long as it doesn't pop out a tornado. I don't like having to leave my home.
I got my nails done before I went to Mom's. It is almost time for a fill in. But I think I will wait for the next paycheck. I have some cash, but I am going to stop by Fred's and see if they have my curtains.
I cut my bangs. They are short. But I kinda like it. I am thinking of going back to dark hair though. I am burgundy/auburn right now. But it shows frizz more. I can't keep my hair one shade for long. I don't know why I do it. The bipolar maybe? I am never satisfied with myself.
I have been taking care of my teeth and gums better since my dental visit. I am using the Vanilla Crest, and flossing with a sample I got from the dentist, and and rinsing with the Wal-Mart brand of citrus Listerine. And yes, it is way better. I feel confident about myself when I know I am taking care of myself. Now if I get on a weight loss program and start losing weight, I will be even more confident. I wish I could lose a lot before William gets back. But I am sure that it will be around 2 pounds a week, and that will have me at about 40 pounds lighter, if I lose consistently. That is a good qmount, but I am at about 270-275 right now. I am going to also speak to my shrink about Topomax. I hear weight loss is a side effect. Major weight loss. And I know one part of Fen-phen is still in use. I want help with the weight loss. I want to lose a lot quickly. I wish I could lose to at least 200 pounds before William gets back. That would be what I weighed when we first started dating. I would be in XL-1X. I am 3X now. Nana griped at me and told me to lose weight before Christmas. Guess she got me clothes. I should have told her I am giving her Mary Kay and she needs a facelift before Christmas, LOL. I wouldn't though. She is my babysitter :)
Well, I guess I am as caught up as I can be for now. I will attempt to be more regular in my writing like I used to be.
Stef
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