18 October 2004 * 17:56
Well the hypomanic turned to angry-manic. I want to kill Kaylee and I am being mean to Lauren too. I could so easily be my Dad. Luckily I have a head doctor appointment soon. I need a different mood stabilizer. This isn't working for me. I want to sleep all the time and I am too manic. It is like all it is, is a sedative for me. I heard of something called Abilify that controls your dopamine levels. It mentioned the anger control and lack of sleeiness and weight gain. It sounds too good to be true. I will ask about it though. Can't hurt. I hate being this way. I feel out of control and it sucks. I just had to vent.
Stef
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