29 August 2004 * 17:55
I am just so pissed at William. I have reached the point where I am numb, but pissed. I want to do something like burn all his stuff in the front yard. No, in the road so people can run over it after the fire is gone. I am being childish, but I would like to do it, LOL. I burned him a CD last night, and I am thinking of going and scratching it up and sending it to him. I stopped downloading all the other music. I am not doing anything for him. He doesn't do anything for me except make me miserable. The bastard. I can't wait to see what his excuse is. He just wanted to check on her family b/c her grandmother has health problems. That was one before. But his grandmother is pretty bad off and he doesn't ask about her. My Mommaw isn't doing so well and he doesn't ask about her. Or will it be because everyone else was doing it? I feel like I am going to explode, but I am calm. I think I NEED to explode, but I'm not. I am saving it for him. I don't know what to do. This is his 2nd strike. I don't have to put up with it. I just need a full time job and I have to put the kids in daycare. That is the hard part. Lauren won't last in daycare. So put up with it another few years, get my gastric bypass, my van, my teeth fixed, get my Cosmetology license, and dump him? Yeah, sounds good. LOL. The trust is completely gone now. It had just been near 100% again. Oh well. The hell with him.
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